Often I end up battering my head against a brick wall. The brick wall is: how to tally the income with the expenses. Especially when the income is mostly in items and the expenses are in currency. For example, the last several times ( I have stopped counting), the wages that we deserved for the work that we have employed has been way below zero. This means we paid every travel bill and sundry expenses that incurred when we served others. And no honorarium was allocated to our work, time and energy. But see, we don’t work for money, but we do have a life to survive in one of the high standard and most expensive part of the world!
Sometimes we do get wages that don’t quite look like ‘I can pay my bills now‘. These include, sharing and staying in someone’s room or house for the time we serve the crowd, a wine bottle, chocolate bars and a set of cushion covers, just to mention a few and oh yes, sometimes a free lunch at the end of the meeting as well.
When the crowd has left after satisfying consumption and revitalized energy to go back and change their surrounding, my battering time begins. How am I going to put this chocolate bar into my gas tank and expect me to take back home safely to my family again? Even more anxious, with what courage will I be able to present a chocolate bar to the person behind the counter to pay for the gas that I just filled in my car in order to get back home? And how will I be able to record my income in items and my expenses in currency and expect that they will tally at the end? Get the picture?
Trying my best to trade with goods, I am beginning to wonder in what age I live, Ice age or Stone age while the majority live in 2010!
Now please don’t get me wrong here. I am not complaining, nor am I angry. But if anyone has a clue to tally my income with expenses, you are very welcome. This is a life that has become so real to me that I have forgotten how otherwise to survive, let alone live! And believe me, it is not just my story, I speak here for many families who have sacrificed everything (that they could easily have if they would invest their time and energy and work in the world) for the sake of the King and his Kingdom and somehow politely with long-suffering and grace manage to keep up that precious smile.
Therefore, something is seriously wrong in the management of the King’s entity. Isn’t it about time that the owner of this entity may loose his patience and remove the managers and the directors who are incapable of running his business in profitability?
For the Scripture says, “Do not muzzle the ox while it is treading out the grain,” and “The worker deserves his wages.”